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Sorry I didn't post this sooner, I was dealing with a lot of BS at the time I made the switch but I'm doing a lot better now. *jazz hands!*

After seeing the comments on my front page I thought it'd be nice to inform those who don't already know: I moved accounts, I now am located at KenDraw /:iconkendraw:
So yeah, I'm not dead- just not active on this account anymore. But I'm keeping it still "active" or alive due to the fact that I have a lot of old art on here that I did for people and old images of characters.
So instead of deleting them it's like a second gallery? Yes, that.
Hope that clarifies where I've been for everyone!

Apologies and other hubbabaloo

Journal Entry: Sat Dec 18, 2010, 10:33 AM

I don’t usually make what I’m going through a public thing, and I’m not looking for sympathy either- I’m posting this because I know some people are wondering why the absence?

The truth shall be shared as best as I can say, but text has never been on my side in displaying my emotions
But I hope that this is a good summary:
I’m sorry.

To everyone, to everyone I’ve hurt or made feel insignificant; to everyone I’ve avoided and dispatched, and to my behavior in the past and my behavior as of late. I am- as a whole- Sorry.
There are no excuses for my actions and how I’ve treated even people I care about; and not only that but my obnoxious and reclusive behavior to even those I do not know. It is absolutely uncalled for and I apologize profusely for that too.

And while I suffer from crippling depression, it is no excuse to act like a child, to get upset over minimal details, to act less than my age and less than my person. Especially when bringing up the same issues over and over and over- constant complaining ISN’T who I am and isn’t who I WANT to be.  

I can’t say I’ll be too active on here, but I wanted to let those who know me, or have been curious: that I appreciate your sentiments.

I’ve got some work to do, some problems to work out, I’ve got a long journey ahead of me, a large amount of spiritual and emotional growth.

And for those who are curious and want to see some updates and such I suggest going to my:

Also, an important note: please; if you are able, donate to Goregoat she’s in need of help for hospital expenses and other things as well. I’d strongly appreciate any aid you were to give her.

Thanks in advance everyone, I hope your holiday season has been going well and that it continues to do so.

commission offer- limited time only-yeahhh

Journal Entry: Mon Nov 29, 2010, 4:19 PM

It isn't often I offer traditional work but considering the current need for money- I thought I'd do just that.
I'm offering 50$ marker commissions to those who wish to pay- pricey? yeah I know, but with good reason- my marker commissions use actual resources and copics don't exactly grow on trees. Examples of what you'd be getting consist of:
50$ without background 75-80$ with, 10 dollars extra for every character added as well. and as you can tell, I can get pretty crazy with backgrounds. (I laugh at the fact that it's primarily Kenny and Vi that are my examples.)

that or if a marker commission doesn't treat your fancy I'm also offering digitally painted commissions as well: examples of that would be: Casual cretinous conversation. by cloudbabykc Shaved Monkey by cloudbabykc

I'll only be taking 3 spaces for this, and once they're filled I don't intend on taking anymore! sorry!

1. mechanical-goldfish (paid)

If you're interested in commissions that range from 10$-35$ then I suggest my normal commissions found and offered here:…

Ganked this

Journal Entry: Tue Nov 9, 2010, 7:54 PM

Name one of my characters and I shall list off:

01. Full name
02. Best friend
03. Sexuality
04. Favorite color
05. Relationship status
06. Ideal mate
07. Turn-ons
08. Favorite food
09. Crushes
10. Favorite music
11. Biggest fear
12. Biggest fantasy
13. Bad habits
14. Biggest regret
15. Best kept secrets
16. Last thought
17. Worst romantic experience
18. Biggest insecurity
19. Weapon of choice
20. Role Model

Ganked from my awesome Pensy and Ray-o-sunshinneee

And then we went surfing.

Journal Entry: Sun Oct 31, 2010, 11:51 PM

KenDraw says:…
"so I just landed from the stratosphere"
Lizzy says:
after that
he went to McDonalds'
got himself a burger
it was a successful day
KenDraw says:
what a BAMF
Lizzy says:
"Today I sky-dove from the stratosphere and went surfing instantly after. I swam with some dolphins, too. MLIA"
KenDraw says:
my sister said: "and now I'm going under water
and I replied: "to visit my people"
Lizzy says:

I'm just a regular bandwaggon hopper.

Journal Entry: Fri Oct 29, 2010, 1:09 PM…
I made one for my characters.
Go forth and ask them your mysterious questions!

Music time

Journal Entry: Sat Oct 23, 2010, 1:22 PM

It's that time again! The time where I ask my watchers (you guys :heart:) to list some music they think is spiffy!

Here's some selections from my own collection:…………………

New journal

Journal Entry: Wed Oct 20, 2010, 8:03 PM

It's 20/10/2010
I felt that a new Css of sorts was in need.

Well- kind of new, I have yet to draw a new illustration for the flavor of the season, so you get a repeat of my ID.

I don't know what else to type at this juncture- haha.

Also you guys should ask some questions for my characters and I'll draw out answers in comments, sound fun?

5 dollar bust commissions? (CLOSED)

Journal Entry: Thu Sep 30, 2010, 1:16 AM

Hey I was thinking of taking 5 dollar bust commissions, would anyone be interested? they'd be sketches and all and I'd only be taking them for a short period of time- I usually wouldn't do this but I'm really in need of cash right now, so any help would be greatly appreciated! thanks for reading!

takers so far:
1. crazypirate9 (unpaid)
2. dead-girl-13 (paid)…
3. ScratchingSouls (paid)…
4. Kydoon (paid)

I like payment first before I start, my pay-pal is:

If you're interested in full body sketch commissions or full colour work please refer to my other commission journal!:…


Journal Entry: Tue Sep 28, 2010, 6:07 PM

Yes I am open for Commissions!
:bulletwhite:SKETCH COMMISSIONS:bulletwhite:
PRICE: $15.00 each. $10.00's for each additional character added
Example of what you'd be getting:

:bulletwhite:FULL COLOUR COMMISSIONS:bulletwhite:
PRICE: $35.00 each. $10.00's for each additional character added, and $10.00 for simple backgrounds.
Example of what you'd be getting:
DarkHarry commission by cloudbabykc Commission: Video gaming Vamp by cloudbabykc

I like payment first before I start, my pay-pal is:

10 indescribable words

Journal Entry: Sun Jun 6, 2010, 1:13 AM

people who will know who they are:

1. I’ve known you the longest, through the darkness and through the light- through my worst moments to I guess what you would call my “best” you have stuck besides me. I cannot thank you enough for that- and at the same time I have absolutely no idea why you allowed yourself to affiliate with me: I’m vile and sickening and I’ve probably rubbed that onto you, for this I apologize- I never wanted you to feel any pain but I know it is inevitable. You’re an amazing person, you’re going to do amazing things; regardless if you think so or not- it’s an inevitability. I’m sorry I don’t express my gratitude as much as I should- and I’m sorry my primary focuses are usually within matters that you cannot control nor know how to respond. But it means a lot to me that you’re there, so thank you- my friend- for everything.

2. You know when life gives you lemons you make lemonade? You’re one of those people that takes those lemons, shoves them back into gods eyes and kicks his ass for giving- wait no, never mind, you’d probably keep those lemons knowing you- hehe :heart:. But in all seriousness, you’re one of the strongest most well-rounded persons I have ever had the luck of knowing. You are not only my BFF (black friend forever) you are beyond that. Someone I can confined to and trust with every ounce of my being. Someone I can relate to with my problems, someone I can turn to when times are at their worst. You’re an incredible person with one of those fiery personalities that you don’t expect to actually exist because they’re so bright and luminous that it almost blinds you. You have an exceptional talent and a worldly knowledge that I am not only envious of but in awe about. You’ve had your share of ups and downs but I assure you- no matter what- I’ll always stick by you and be there for you. You mean the world to me and I’m so grateful and glad that I had the opportunity of meeting you. Thank you for everything and more.

3. Chin up! You don’t know how brave you are for sticking it out thus far- I know you’re young and the road ahead is rough, but you are going to make it- I know you are, and you’re going to be with him and we are going to win this fucking battle even if it KILLS us. I hate what your family is doing to you- how they are oppressing you and bringing you down. But I’ll be here for you- I’ll stand by your side- I’ll do whatever I can to help. Please just stay positive- I’m so glad you’re my friend, and I’m glad I have someone to relate to- I love how you light up when you talk about dreams with me and how we can joke about even the most miniscule and tiniest things. Thanks for sticking by me so far- I appreciate all your help, love, and understanding through this all- though I’m still sorry I dragged you and him into it.

4. You’re a hard one to write for, I don’t quite know where to start with you because you’re just so… obscure- that’s not necessarily bad or anything of the sort but you and I have always had this very- hmmm interesting would be putting it oddly. I guess what I mean to say is- we have a connection but it’s different than most of the other relationships I have with people- there are times where we could talk about anything for hours and then days where the conversation ends abruptly. I don’t quite know what to make of it. I believe it’s mostly my fault since that’s a reoccurring thing in any conversation I seem to have with others. However, I wish we would talk more, or have the connection we used to, or have the stability at least- I appreciate everything you’ve done for me- even if I suck at showing it. And everything you’ve said in the past I still hold dear to me. I know things have changed but know that I’ll always be here for you to confine to. And I wish you the best of luck on your personal projects and endeavors!

5. You and I haven’t been Seeing Eye to eye lately but I feel like perhaps our relationship is improving? Hopefully? I know I did something in the past to hurt you- though it was unintentional I never thought I could make you feel like I was avoiding you or forgetting you- I would never, I just have been so occupied with things- But that is never anything to stop me from consulting a friend of mine, especially not you. You mean a lot to me, and I know our interests don’t really align, yours lay within things I’ve never watched nor have the time to- but it doesn’t mean I will ever shun you for it. I still appreciate your company- sorry I’m just not that talkative- quite quiet really… But never the less hopefully things pick up!

6. I miss you: I’m hoping now that school is out we’ll be able to hang out and I’ll be able to tell you everything. :C I miss talking to you, just chillin’- taking those long car drives and listening to music in the middle of no-where as we discussed whatever. You’re so insightful but so middle-ground, you are capable of staying within the balanced spectrum while still maintaining a level headed understanding, for that you amaze me and I am really super glad I have you as a friend. I hope you’re will and in good spirits!

7. I’m sorry I am incapable of speaking to you normally- especially lately, and I’m sorry things haven’t been going well throughout your life- but you’re super strong and super sweet, you have a talent for taking things of simplicity and making it beautiful and are able to put your own little stitch into everything you make, I wish I was capable of better speech but alas- I’m a little empty handed when it comes to this. I hope things do look up and that you live a strong healthy life with no more sadness: I hope for this so much.

8. I’m sorry things ended the way they did but I’m glad that you’re my friend regardless- I’m sorry though, of the negative emotions still sifting within you and festering in your mind. You don’t deserve that sort of insecurity and I feel responsible for giving it to you. I hope things look up- that going where you need to go helps you and that your life starts to become brighter, you deserve much more happiness: I’m sorry if I caused you anything but that.

9. I wish we were closer- But I’m quite frankly afraid of scaring you away or saying something to upset you. I admire you and your work a lot I just wish I knew more about YOU because you seem like a really interesting down to earth person. You’re super sweet from the times we have spoken and I am really glad we’ve actually started to talk- even if I’m a scared weenie when doing so dkjndfhjdfh

10. You. Words cannot even describe where to begin with you. You are my night, my day, all the good things in my life accumulated into one being who knows so much and prides himself within it. You’re incredible, astonishing, handsome, witty, calm but gently so- stoic- but jaunty and silly when you calm down. I ask myself every day: “How did I get so lucky? How did I meet this man? Why did he choose me.” And when you say “I love you.” It feels like everything is right in the world. That those words don’t shadow a shallow lie anymore, that they MEAN something. They mean a life with you and I promise I’ll wait no matter how long this takes. I’ll wait until I am unable to move or breathe. If you are what I am waiting for, if you are who I am to live my life with then there is no span of time no distance of travel that can alter my feelings for you. You’re much smarter, articulate, magnificent then I could ever begin to describe or be but I hope just writing these words might bring forth how much I love you, how much I need you, and how much I can’t live without you. I’m willing to give it all if it means to make you happy- to set you free- to make your world better. I think about you more then anything else, any person, any idea, anything, any character. You are my everything; you come first before it all. Thank you for loving me, thank you for being by my side, thank you for being that line of sense that knocked me into place, that gentle voice of guidance, that caring and kind soul, that person that regardless of my faults was able to look at me and find something worth within this pile of filth that I am. I don’t know how you did it but I won’t argue: because you love me, and I love you; That’s all that matters.

  • Listening to: breath
Convo clipping with Kydoon I LOLED nsdgsd

Sean says:
I always looked at the word "kawaii," and thought... "That's one letter off from Hawaii."
KenDraw says:
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KenDraw says:
"oh it means CUTE? In Japanese? .... I feel so disappointed! I thought people were saying my work was hawaii!
Sean says:
And then you wonder "since when were states subject to being used as adjectives?
Sean says:
My work is so New Mexico!
Sean says:
But my comments are totally Delaware.
KenDraw says:
.....I just laughed SO BAD
KenDraw says:
KenDraw says:
Sean says:
I will North Dakota you so badly if you keep annoying me! (Oh wait, that's a verb.)
Sean says:
It got verbed.
KenDraw says:
KenDraw says:
I need to post this convo in a journal
KenDraw says:
Was freaking STELLAR and AWESOME, she's AWESOME
You question the awesome you say? Well gaze upon this~…

Yeah. I know. You feel stupid now for ever questioning it.
Anyhow~! Bechno is a real sweety and very fun to talk to (even if we didn't get to hang that long D8> AAUUGHHH I was sads it didn't lasssttt but my allergies are horrible in b-Field HORRIBLE. AUGH! You probably noticed my congested sinuses)
XDD Her sister is also really awesome, and has the same name as me :iconhurrplz: :heart:
I drew Smoothie and she drew Etahis (of course :heart:)
I'm sorry I didn't give you better art mon ami ;; AUUGHHH I was shaking so much- HAHAHAHA- SO... TERRIFIED
your rents are cool too 8D Even if I didn't get to talk to them much (btw~)

epic day was epic ;;
Hey guys! I'm trying to collect when peoples Birthday's are for a mental note! So why not make a journal where, for future reference you can tell me right here?? 8D YAY! So please tell me your Birthday~!

Mines March 25, For those of you who are curious :D

Also to answer my last journals comments- WOW! I didn't know so many people lived or knew about houses with both basements and attics! I'm surprised- I thought it was something imaginative and AMAZINNGGG But now I KNOW THE TRUTH! >83
So thanks for that guys! it was very interesting and gave me insight!
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  • Listening to: the reason- hoobastank

Art Theift. The Silent Killer.

Fri May 12, 2006, 7:04 PM
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This is a report I did for Launguage arts. sooooo enjoy my crappy writing XD

Art; over the years it has played an important role in society. It has awes many and inspired for years to come. It takes years of work for people to acquire this amazing skill. And the people, who succeeded in this field of creation, SUFFER for it. For you see, many do not respect the artists work. They trace, edit, abuse, sell, infringe, and destroy their lives work. And many think nothing of it. This ignorance and inanity sometimes destroys lives. It destroys the artist's confidence, and another beautiful idea is destroyed and shattered. But so many people ask "why do they care? It's just some character or piece of paper." That character- is the artist's child. It's like having your child beaten and abused right in front of you. It's like saying "OH! It's just a child!" But you might be thinking- "but the child is alive- the character isn't!" INCORRECT!! The character IS living; in the artists mind the character walks, talks, breaths, thinks- The artist gives life to that character.
Well you might be wondering how the artists feels? How big is this issue? Well, first off. The artist feels ANGER, hatred, sadness, and disrespected. I know this because, it has happened to me. My characters, my creations, were stolen taken, and edited. Anger filled me. I felt like the person didn't respect me at all. One place this happens quite often is MY space. No one on the internet has common sense anymore! My friends character, Max, was taken and posted on forums with another name. She was sickened and appalled and was driven into a state of panic. This happens on the internet on various occasions. In fact, if you Google "art theft" it comes to an extreme amount of results. One of which was a rant by 2 the Ranting Gryphon. He had some excellent arguments along with it. However, there was a very large amount of profanity, but a good quote from it was "If you have to ask yourself why it's wrong to steal someone else's art work then half your brain was lost when they tried to abort you." Yeah, it's offensive, but he gets to the point.
Another question I asked myself was- what do I think is the line that has to be crossed between inspiration, and art theft. Yes; there is a very slim yet solid line between the two. And what I think crosses that line is when you take an idea and do not credit the artist. When you LIE and disrespect the artist. I believe when you credit and ask the artist, like "Hey I really like this idea and wanted to know if I could use it in a picture." And if the artist said "no." then you respect that and DON'T use the idea! However; if the artist believes that EVERYTHING is theirs and they ATTACK the person. That is disrespectful on the artist part. I believe that being inspired from artists is part of the learning process of becoming a better one in the future. If you steal a whole character however; that is not being INSPIRED, that is being a thief.
But off art theft- let's go to the progression of art over the years and see why it is so important to respect the artists work. Back; before I was able to draw as I do now. Artists were forced to use cells. Doing animation frame by frame by frame. Not until the late 90's did animators start to use the amazing power of computers. This process has smoothed animation from what it was back then. However; many studios still use, cells, pencil flip books, and animating tools that most people have disregarded in order to use computers. Even I use a computer, but that might possibly be because computers have much simpler and easier to use tools (they also have an undo button). Not only art the tools easier to understand- But it makes things move so much quicker and faster the regular. It takes usually years to animate or draw things out cell by cell. It takes even longer to create a character! It took me 12 years to have what my characters are now, my blood, dreams, sweat and will were all put into my creations. But most importantly- My heart and soul.
So now you know why artists get so angry and upset when they see their characters being stolen. I've interviewed many artists about how they have felt. One of which was my friend Lizzy. She was the girl with the character named Max. This is how it went:
Me: So; tell me. How does art theft make you feel?; What is your opinion on it?
Lizzy: It shows ignorance and disrespect for the artist.
Me: How much time does it take to finish a picture regularly for you?
Lizzy: Depending on how hard I work on it- an hour to six hours.
Me: When you create or finish a character; how does it make you feel?
Lizzy: A mix of being relieved that it's out of the way and a sense of accomplishment if it doesn't turn out bad.
Me: And when the character is stolen?
Lizzy: It kind of hurts; especially when it's over the internet because there is hardly anything you can do about it.
Me: Can you explain how it hurts?
Lizzy: I'd get angry and upset and feel like the person obviously doesn't respect me. Like they said "Hey! This is mine now! Kthxbye!"
Me:  Thank you for your time Lizzy.
Lizzy: You're welcome.
So as you can plainly see; art theft is WRONG! Its wrong wrong wrong! So Don't DO IT!


and now to make your lives complete, here's the Mighty one.

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  • Listening to: Kiki's Delivery Service-A Town With an Ocean View